What do I like?

The feeling of the sunshine warming my skin

A slight breeze tickling my hair around my face

Someone playing with my hair

Lying in front of the fan for too long in Australia, getting goosebumps and the interesting realisation that I could actually enjoy the feeling of being “cold”

Learning new things

Having “realisations”

Visiting somewhere new

The sudden feeling of surprise when you meet a new person who you instantly feel a connection with

Finding somewhere that feels like home

Meeting up with friends after time apart and looking forward to it!

Meeting new people

Having a friend who you don’t have to see often but somehow your connection and feeling of friendship remains the same

Feeling inspired (and actually acting on it)

Spending my weekends taking daytrips, listening to live music, visiting cafes and restaurants and meeting up with people (family and friends)

Taking a moment to pause and appreciate my surroundings

Truly realising something that you already knew in theory

Feeling the wind on my face, pushing back my hair as I take a power walk

The feeling of determination and having a sense of direction as I walk with purpose

Talking things through with someone and it having a positive effect

Visiting quirky places and events

Savouring red wine or dark chocolate and tea

Allowing myself to have a cheese and tomato toastie

Dark hot chocolate from Buskers

Editing a piece until I am (almost) completely happy with it

Allowing myself the freedom to write a bit more experimentally

Sharing this writing

The slight ache in my muscles when I know I have stretched or exercised

The flowers that seem to spring up everywhere and anywhere around this time

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I write because…

I write because it is a way of sharing my experiences, of preserving them in some way so that they are never lost?

I write because it is a way of expressing myself, particularly those feelings that completely overcome me, that make me feel alive or are completely new. Those feelings that I can’t and don’t want to forget or maybe that I wish I could but yet I just can’t seem to let them go.

At times I have worried that by writing about and sharing these experiences I am somehow ‘exorcising’ them and that this means they may be lost forever – the feelings I experienced gone and banished from my emotional memory. While this may be a healthy process for moving on from negative experiences, there are some times that I enjoy remembering and as the feelings rush back, it makes me feel alive again and it’s almost as if I am there.

I write because it helps me to make sense of my experiences but in this process are my memories lost to the page? There are some experiences that I had such a strong urge to share and I carried them with me until I found the motivation to set up my blog. Once I had poured my encounters into my words, I found that I struggled to recollect them in the same way. I could no longer be transported back to the streets of Paris, I had forfeited my emotional memory in my bid to share my experiences.

I write because it helps me to make sense of my experiences but are some feelings better left a mystery? By writing I am choosing to clarify the situation, I must decide on the words to express my meaning but by doing this I run the risk of choosing the wrong word. Could this skew my memory and manipulate my experience into something that it was not? Are some experiences better left free to survive with their blurry edges, without being pinned down by words and redefined by the clarity of our current perception of our memory? Do we risk turning our experience into something different by attaching words that don’t belong? How much is the way we present our experiences influenced by what we believe will sound better to our audience?

I want to share my experiences but I don’t want to lose the feelings that these experiences gave me. I seek clarity and definition yet I don’t want to sacrifice the raw emotion or initial experience. This has made me slightly wary and has made me question what to share and what to nurture. Yet I had the desire to share and I do not doubt that I will feel this again. I really hope that my emotional memories survive regardless of this. I also hope that the two can exist synonymously.


 

This morning I went back and read my piece about Paris. I found myself reminded of so many aspects of the trip that I had ‘forgotten’ and now with a little effort, my emotional memory can also manage to muster up the feelings evoked while I was there.

Reading my first attempt at explaining why I write makes me realise that I have focussed quite heavily on the negative. I write because I want to share my experiences and thoughts – I do not see this as a bad thing – quite the opposite.

There is still a slight fear of ‘losing’ something to the page but when I think about it, I know that as time moves on and our lives continue, we can often lose sight of ideas that were once so clear. Memories can be misplaced, regardless of whether we have recorded them or not and in this sense, the writing can be a reminder.

I carried those memories so close to me, partly because I needed to and partly because I was waiting to share them. I have described them with as much loyalty to my perception as I could and looking back, I think this acts as a happy reminder.

New Inspiration: Once Each Day

Once Each Day is the new blog created by Pots of Tea.

This collaborative new space offers people the opportunity to share snippets inspired by their day. Embracing writing, sharing, inspiration and communication, Once Each Day truly encompasses what blogging is all about. Share one sentence about your day, become a contributor or remain anonymous and help to sew together this social collage.

As someone who appreciates thoroughness, I have tended to feel that my passing thoughts are not blog worthy, instead opting for more detailed and lengthy accounts. This is an idea that I have challenged in Reminder to myself but I have not completely managed to change my way of thinking.

I have embraced Once Each Day as a friendly nudge to share my thoughts more consistently and I am happy to find an outlet which encourages me to express my passing thoughts. I am looking forward to the challenge of posting a single daily sentence and to watching the blog develop with more contributions.

If you would like to submit a sentence anonymously, you can do so here or if you’d prefer to be recognised, please write here.

I look forward to hearing about your day!